Amul was a coddled girl,
The only girl child of her abode.
Sweet and serene was always liked,
Liked by all, in the family so large.
Traditions & customs were part of the house
Assiduous, calm, searching for the unknown,
Was always seen thinking a lot.
With loads of goals & aims at heart,
Wished to serve, people around.
Always aimed to be a great daughter,
Good wife to a man of her dream,
And a caring mother for the child in the heaven.
Never was mischievous, never was too active.
Always yearned to quench her thurst of knowledge.
Trying to decipher, the things she dint know,
Trying to make space for the life to flow.
Liked to dance for all the sweet melodies,
Adored to sing as sweet as the nightingale.
Loved music than anything in the world.
With the kids of her make, with lots of siblings,
Father so close, close like her friend,
Mom so loving, with love so eternal,
Parents always felt proud of Amul.
Life was happy,
Life was beautiful,
Never felt soreness, never thought of troubles,
Life passed by as did her childhood.
Then came the new life,
Life of teens!
With pure feelings, with bursting instincts,
To see the wonder of the world around.
To know the world, in profundity.
College life was not so sweet,
Never had she enjoyed the way the friends behaved.
Girls were not like the girl she had thought of
Boys were not like the boy of her dreams.
Always confused, struggling, and trying to know,
Feelings snubbed, opinions questioned,
Conscious never felt satisfied of the things around.
Goals took a stance, never moved further.
The flow of life took many stops.
The luster of the beautiful age
Lost unknown
Amul never tried never even tried
To know the reasons
Just witnessed the stranger in her.
The zeal & quest was lost for a while
Dint know when she could really come back
To the life of her dreams.
But strong was her heart which was always the same
Never altered her way with the events of the time
Strength in her character, vigour took the stand
She passed all the hurdles of the dangerous teens
Then came another phase of the age of real life
Taunts in her teens carried forward,
Zeal& quest of knowledge still sleeping
Searching for ways to awaken the sleeping beauty of life
She felt for the first time, that the real life was so distinct,
Distinct from her dreams,
Always raised questions for the society
Which often remained unanswered.
Amul remained still, still with her outside world.
Freedom was real, real in her life,
With life of experience at her home front.
Father was never a Hitler
Mom never put obstacles
Both were open to her life’s decisions
Always asked her to feel on her own
Always helped to experience herself on her own terms.
Anything Amul really felt thanking the higher self was
to her parents , who were her real guides
When at home, her life took breathe.
Once she was out experiencing the outside world
It was all contaminated with hatred& jealousy
She yearned to see the true love of life
But dint find a pinch of it in the outside world
Her mind wandered, heart closed
Spirit went low, soul distorted
She laughed but the laugh was never real
She seemed joyful. But the joy was not natural
Career took set back, the reasons very genuine
Mind stopped responding, but heart still alive
Amul asked herself a question, why is life so
For a girl like you?
You have all the requisites at your door
But why is it that you’re lagging behind
Never came an answer until seven years
Seven years were like hell
With many attempts to patch up her career
But nothing seemed working in real.
Life was good life was luxurious,
As the only girl child with all the attention,
But amul was different, different from the lot.
She had ambitions to renew the society
She yearned for knowledge, which she thought, were in possessing the degrees.
Always used to think missed out studying in BITS PILANI.
Amul started helping her papa in his business.
Though it was a small attempt,
But her mind started freshening
Entrepreneurs feel started spurring up
Digging up the skills lying dormant,
A new ray of hope started in her.
She started communicating with the outside world a lot.
Started chatting using the internet,
Met many guys who were entrepreneurs’
Made many new friends
Hours & hours spent on the net
That interaction with guys helped her a lot
She got to know about the troubles & life’s challenges they faced
When she actually compared, her troubles were very small
Learned that she was blessed by god
For the first time in her life thought of god,
God she never knew, never felt,
She gained respect for guys.
Slowly, the soreness turned to understanding
That even they too have hearts
Real feelings.
Thoughts of relationships started to take seed.
Then something strange happened
She started getting involved into her friend’s lives
So deep that she started moving with their lives
She started making decisions based on their lives
Their love failures, their wrong judgments
Gave a strong brunt.
Amul took everything from their experiences.
And starting forming her life’s opinions.
Never had she realized that she was different,
Never had she realized that she took the wrong path.
That she is different, there were many guys who liked her, loved her,
May be not said, but could have come out, if given space.
Amul had a best friend, She was the only friend amul loved to share her feelings.
Best friend had a love affair, which involved Amuls own sibling.
The love affair shattered with the wrong decision of her best friend.
It tore her best friend and also Amuls own family member.
But more than them, it affected Amul so great.
At the age of 23, the age so crucial for forming decisions,
Fragile heart became so hard seeing them that it just,
Started avoiding life, the life of her own.
She started living in her self-made shell
At 23, slowly life became still.
So much that she forgot that she had a life that’s moving.
At 23 formed a opinion, that if she needs to marry,
She needs to marry, the one whom she knows.
Whom she knows about for a couple of time,
May be smokes, drinks, being with relationships,
It might not matter but she needs to know him.
And know him close enough, where her heart feels the comfort of being in a relationship.
She decided that she needs to go for only love marriage, but never do anything,
Like her best friend.
She decided not to leave a guy, in the middle of the life.
She made it very clear in her heart.
Amul thought of her friend’s life, so much that she forgot about her own.
Years went by, Amuls best friend married and also given birth to a sweet child.
Amuls best friend was comfortable with her marriage and happy with life.
But the marks left by her affair, costed amul a lot.
Though it was not the mistake of amul,
Amul too suffered with her best friend’s life
Everything happened so unknown that when amul looked back at her life
Amul felt that it’s her own mistake
Though everyone makes a mistake
This mistake paid, a lot of price
Amul started avoiding her marriage proposals,
Always giving out reasons of making her carrier.
Parents were so patient so loving,
Always kept waiting when they can make her marriage.
Like the true parents, came to her, one day and said,
“You can choose on your own, your boy of your life
We will approve.
We would never look for caste, creed, age, and job.
What is important that my daughter should be happy.
Happy with her life, enjoying life in its totality."
Amuls heart was touched with gratitude, tears rolled a whole day.
Washing the soreness she felt, breaking the blocks she created in herself.
Amul weeped and weeped for days not knowing what to do.
Everyone is so good so nice to her.
She felt that for all that life has done to her,
She was the only reason; she was responsible for all her mistakes.
She was the only one, who needs to be questioned.
But strong was her heart which was always the same,
Never altered her way with the events of the time.
Strength in her character, vigour took the stand,
Amul kept moving moving with her life.
With a hope, that one day, she could answer her questions on her own,
Find the one ,whom she really means a lot in her life, her life partner.
Amul kept moving with a hope of brighter tomorrow,
Finally she dint regret for her failures.
She understood that all her failures were stepping stones for journey of success, in reality.
For they really shaped her Personality.
Personality that never shakes, with the outside disturbances.
Nothing really affects her inside now.
She is happy within herself.
But there is something, longing in her even now.
That’s waiting for completion
That completion can bring wonders in reality.
May be its marriage, marriage with the one she can find in her life.
Seeing her condition, her family kept on looking for astrologers.
To know what’s happening with Amul.
Many of them have checked in the fate of amul.
Gave out verdicts from their knowledge.
Amul though never believed, silently listened to all.
Somewhere she wished to know what they would predict.
She wished to test their knowledge with her own perception.
Some of the predictions were true.
Like seven years of misfortune, where whatever she takes up, never accomplishes.
She has a will that is very strong, will that can set her apart and also others on track.
To her surprise what she actually thought of achieving & her interests, her ambitions,
Her dreams where actually there in her predictions.
Some of them were new, but most of them were in her perception as real.
Amul was startled at this coincidence.
After all the predictions, amul put one question to the Astros.
“Why should I trust all that you have said?”
How can I know that it’s going to happen as you said in my life.
Then the Astros said, with depth in their words.
“There are so many species on this earth, so many crowds in this universe and human race.
Why do you think we happen to meet? Or why do you think we spoke to each other for so much time?
Why do you think we wasted so much time for free of cost?
This moment is perfect as it is, and destined for both of us.
And one thing let me tell you o girl, not all lives need so much of insight like yours.
Whatever was told to you came out from our hearts. May be its destined for us both to meet.
God sends his people to help.
Don’t expect him to stand by you and help you.
It’s through people that he makes his things happen
We are such people.
IF you can realize this and go out with the guidance of our consciousness,
You can definitely reach your purpose of life.
You have something great to achieve and marriage would serve as a gateway of your purpose.
Keep this in mind and keeping searching for your life partner.
Just go by your heart and go about your journey.
Don’t ever look for job, caste, creed, age,
Your partner would exactly be the other side of you.
Sharp nosed, fair, tall, hugely built, beautiful than you,
Study in sciences, clever, witty, so practical looks grounded on earth,
Red with anger, always likes to argue, but kind to your feelings at the same time.
Knows how to enjoy life, colorful man, who likes to experience everything of life.
Sensual, serene, spiritual, fickle minded, creative, into many projects.
Multitasked, family man, cautious in spending money, entrepreneur in attitude,
A great food lover, could eat non veg too, sensitive, good family background. Money making like his hobby. Loves to make money.
Will surely have plans to open a HOTEL in life.
Will be interested in real estate, educational field, and hotel related business along with doing his job.
Even the probable letters of your hubby is known to you.
M, N, S, O, P.
What is important that he matches you with your perceptions,
He matches you in understanding people like you do.
More importantly, he will know your heart.
And then you can know that it’s your life partner.
With that answer, amul never forgot their verdicts.
Amul inner self trusted the instincts of the astrologers.
Hope for a brighter tomorrow,
Patience for the good things to happen,
Confidence in every move of life,
Ignoring the pull backs of the outside world,
Amul kept on moving. Moving every step, she found a new ray of hope.
A new twist in career, opted for doing something different,
Then got a job, unexpected and moved again with her career.
She lived in every moment of her work.
Experienced all the hurdles, setbacks, misunderstandings,
Wrong interpretations, Advices, verdicts of her fellow workers.
She realized strongly that for possessing true wisdom, degrees are not the labels.
It’s the heart opened to events in life, the concern for the people around us ,
The acceptance of the wrongs of others, the perceptions of the reality ,
That’s makes us educated & not the BITS PILANI degree.
The ghost of possessing degrees finally got washed away.
Amul stopped finding faults with her and also with others.
She made every attempt to make each day a better one than the preceding.
She started enjoying her job so much, that she slowly started to come back.
With new feelings, with new perceptions,
Vision of life started to awaken.
She is happy like never before,
She found a new amul, which she was never aware of.
She started experiencing all that she missed out, until that time.
She started exploring new skills in her.
The stand still life of 23 started moving again.
Feelings of love blossomed again.
GOD! So much did I miss all these years!
That was amuls first reaction to her life.
Heart became lighter, love seemed pouring everywhere,
Amul made sure plans to renew her life.
Widened her vision to the events of life,
To also find the love of her life, the soul mate of her birth,
She kept on moving, never again to rest.
She was so sure, sure of finding all that she needs,
With true love in her heart, purity in thoughts,
Dreams so real,
Went about the new journey of life
She was there every bit in her workplace.
Expecting some wonders happening ,
She was pretty sure that god is at her side.
She was convinced that she is on her path.
Path of life which is too long,
Path of life always amusing,
Went about the new journey of life.
